change

After hanging out with some people tonight, I’ve realized just how different my life is now and how different it will be. I don’t really have the same friends that I used to and actually I don’t have many friends at all anymore (at least close by). Circumstances changed. People changed. I changed and am still changing.

I realized that much of my humor was self-depreciating, so I tried to refrain from making comments that only put myself down. Sadly enough, this means I don’t say much. I’ve actually become quite reserved around people. Before I didn’t care much what people thought of me (because I didn’t really care as much for them, or didn’t think I did anyway), whereas now I actually (consciously) want people to like me .

I am still in the phase of trying to decide who I really am and who I want to be.

I am trying to branch out in my interests and the people with whom I associate with.

I am still in the phase of trying to decide who I really am and who I want to be.


I am trying to be friendlier and more sincere, with varying results.

I spend a lot of time alone and it doesn’t bother me all that much, but sometimes a I am a bit frustrated that some necessary changes can’t take place immediately. It would make life a whole lot better. I think it would anyway.

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  1. Anonymous

    Life is a process of deciding who we really are, and who we want to be. Perhaps it is because who we are (and want to be) changes with growth and greater understanding of ourselves and our Father’s plan for us. I think most people don’t think about it that much, they just live. Whether that’s good or not…
    Mom

    Posted December 27, 2004 at 7:11 am | Permalink